This Crazy But Wonderful Life.

Sometimes life throws you for a loop! I have been hesitant to write this post for awhile now. Mainly because I don't want people to think less of me or judge me, but I feel like I will appreciate it later. Maybe I can look back on this post someday and learn so this doesn't happen again.

 The last few months have been pretty difficult for me. I won't go into too much detail because it is still too fresh in my mind. Let just say that I let all the stress and worry get to me. I kept everything inside until I just couldn't take it anymore. I had changed everything in my life in a short amount of time. I started to feel like I was pretty worthless and that I didn't do anything right. I also felt all alone with these feelings. My close friends had all moved away and while I had my family I still missed them. My family is pretty amazing and were always there for me when I needed them. My poor parents got to see all the breakdowns and a lot of tears. Thank goodness for my parent's sound advice and unconditional love. My sister was also always there for moral support. I was also able to turn to an  amazing bishop who helps me so much! The time and advice I received from Bishop Hayden really helped me heal! You can tell that he lives close to the spirit. He has a way of saying exactly what I need to hear and in a way that I need to hear it. I feel so blessed to be in the 5th ward! There are many people I haven't mentioned that helped me through this as well! I think some of them don't even know who they are. I  hope they know that I  appreciate all that they do for me. Even if it is just sitting next to me at church and listening to my problems.

Things are so much better now! I am able to recognize that my thoughts weren't true. Satan is pretty smart and I know he was able to prey on all my weaknesses. The mistake I made was to believe his words and to keep it all bottled in. I should have turned to my family and my bishop long before it got to the point that I couldn't handle it. While I was going through this I fell in love with quotes! I went on pinterest and have 2 boards dedicated to them. I recently printed 20 of my favorites and made a quote wall in my room. It is a nice reminder to look at my wall and read a quote that applies to my day.  I also moved into another apartment and have become friends with my roommates. I love my roommates! They have also helped me a lot and probably don't know they have. I am trying to come out of my shell and make new friends and go to ward activities. It is hard for me though. I have come a long way in dealing with my issues but some things have always been hard for me. I am trying though and one of these days it has to get easier right? In the meantime I am doing really well. I feel at peace and content. I feel like I am on the right course for my life and can't wait to see what Heavenly Father has in store for me. "Because when you stop and look around, this life is pretty amazing!"

So there it is. I hope most of you reading this understand just a little bit and see where I am coming from. I also hope that if your struggling like I was that you will learn a lesson from this and seek help from those around you.